It was hard to lose my best friend. I cried for hours and hours, wondering what would happen in the future and how I would be.
Should I shut everyone out so that I don’t get hurt again,
Or do I treasure those who I can still call friends in hope to have many good friends.
One of my good friends from High school came to visit me on campus yesterday and she asked why I don’t contact her and why she had to call/ text me all the time. I thought about how my best friend took up all the time I ever needed to call or text her. After she was gone, there was no one for me to find on my phone. Somehow, it was like all my contacts never existed.
And now, I am expected to text and call so many people so that my connects never dwindle and make fake smiles while somehow avoiding passive aggressive behavior.